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My First Kiss…
I wrote this essay for a scholarship so figured I’d share :)
I knew it was coming, but that didn’t stop my heart from beating so fast. My best friend told me in gym class that my first boyfriend, Zach, was going to kiss my as soon as the last bell rang. All of my friends assumed I had already been beyond first base since I was always so private about my relationship but within me i was FREAKING OUT. As i walked down the hallway thoughts raced through my mind.. “am i wearing lipgloss?” “why am I so sweaty?” “why did he picked right after gym class to do this?” “where do i put my teeth?” “OH MY GOSH, WHY AM I SO SWEATY?”.. but as soon as I laid eyes on him time stopped. It sounds corny but I had that moment, that movie moment, where your eyes meet and suddenly everyone and everything around you becomes a blur and the only person that matters is staring right at you. The fact that he was incredibly handsome and had the cutest smile i’ve ever seen also made him a little hard to miss. All the other students were shoving things in their backpacks, ready to bolt out of school but he was just standing there next to my locker, flashing his adorable smile, waiting for me to maneuver my way to him through all the chaos. When i finally reached my locker, all i could managed to get out was a simple “hi”. He palmed the small of my back and leaned in, the rest came naturally. He kissed me, my first kiss! It felt as though we were a small vortex in the tornado of chaos going on around us. A truly magical moment that will live forever in my memory, even if to this day he does not know he was my first.
Not matter what…
you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up becuase if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.
-Marilyn Monroe
